To me, there are certain things in life that's more important than photography. Of these, there are three things that will go through a great shift of change over the next few weeks.

I hope that I will have to strength to cope with these changes, and that my family will remain unscathed from this trial.

Any word of prayer from my friends in DA will be deeply appreciated.

I'm thinking about my next step.

Should I do what I want to do, should I do what I have to do?

Decisions... decisions....

After more than 6 weeks in the photographic wilderness, I find myself re-energized and craving to go for a shoot. But the old voice-in-the-head stopped me right on my tracks.

Lessons from past shoots has taught me to be more selective of the projects that I take to ensure optimal satisfaction. Looking that I'm trying to increase the quality and quantity of the project outcomes, there will have to be a sacrifice in the frequency of projects that I undertake. With this in mind, I better come up with a tighter game plan than the anarchic manner which I had planned my previous shoots.

I'm talking about a total re-think of the logistics, pre-shoot planning, PP workflow.... pretty much everything.

Looking at the benefits, I do not think there will be any in terms of the creative output over the short term as I've seemed to reach a plateau. Rather than getting frustrated over that issue, I think it would be better to make each outing as painless and as enjoyable as possible.

I'm extremely grateful with my family and photo buddies for all the support they've provided since I took up photography. I've improved faster than I had anticipated, so the slump I'm facing now is something which caught me by surprise.

Photography did not give me as much kicks as it used to. Perhaps this is normal or perhaps other work/family issues is the cause of it. Or perhaps I'm just thinking too much.

Where I used to bring my DSLR with me wherever I go, I barely touched it this week. I don't know why I'm getting like this, but I hope I'll snap out of it.

The sooner, the better.

I just had one of those weird dreams that runs like a Tarantino movie. Can't remember much about it, except that it feels like Prison Break (3rd Season) with zombies in it.

I used to have these types of dreams/nightmares when I was younger, but I've always thought that they'll go away once I'm older. Its troubling to wake up and realize that your dreamland experience feels like a B-grade slasher flick.

Weird.